I don’t know about you but there have been times when I have been so low I could not see my way out. But in my weakest hour of giving up something on the inside would not allow me to do so.
It is at that very moment inner strength comes, pulls me out and encourages me to keep moving forward, to keep believing for the better.
Throughout my 20s I was a depressed and defeated individual. I came home from college without a degree and I felt so low and defeated. It did not help any that I disappointed my mom by not finishing and (she never let me forget it). All my friends got married in their twenties and were starting families and I was left alone. I was living at home with my mother, no car, working temporary jobs and no relationship. I use to sit and cry for long periods of time and eat. I thought I was unlovable, unemployable, and destined to be stuck in my moms house forever.
Yet something inside me kept me going. I was involved in a local church at that time and I spent every moment I could at that place. I even volunteered in the church office for several months. I know now that it was God me and letting me know in my heart not to give up, not to give in, that no matter what I was going to make it.
I am 45 now and I look back on those times with such amusement. I realize as I have matured as a women just how much I have grown and been able to withstand the hardships of life that were designed to destroy me and I thank god that I stood.
It was only because strength comes in our weakest hours, hope and the ability to keep fighting is an inherited part of our nature. It is Gods way of letting us know he will never leave us nor forsake us, especially in our darkest hours.
I continue to find however, that I must continue to guard my mind against regression. I have found myself this year not as productive as I wanted to be. I have not lost the weight that I wanted, or accomplished the things with the business I set for myself. But it is okay. I realize God is calling me to go deeper in him and I will not get to the level that I want until I do.
Beloved know that it is okay to feel frustrated, it is our minds way of letting us know that we need to continue to make changes to improve ourselves. Never give up or give in, ass long as you keep moving and progressing towards your passion in life you will never be a failure.
To God Be the Glory; both Now and Forevermore.
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